Funny, doubt anyone will read this. 'Cept maybe Spero. If anything *waves* Hey there! Ah, the slight boredoms of a Sunday afternoon. Happily bored cuz it means I've got nothing to do for once, but that's still pretty nice. You know how you click a link which leads to another link which goes to another? Yeah. That's how I got here. So I suppose I should do some sort of update. Hm. Well. Still with Robert. Over 4 years and still going strong. He's the one and we both know there's no going back. In his own eloquent words 'It's either the two of us together or one of us is dead. That's the only way.' and he's right. He's my sunshine, my light. He understands me better than I could have ever dreamt of finding someone to. When I'm upset or confused, he makes things right. He knows just how to word things so that I'll understand them. He keeps me sane - even when I'm mad at him, I'm not really mad at him. I love him more and more everytime I see him. I have faith in his ability to make me happy and to make the most of himself. Even if he has self doubts, I never doubt him. He's beautiful, wonderful - a perfect soul in his imperfection. I can never get enough of him, even though I don't feel the need to spend 24/7 with him. He is MINE and I am HIS and it shall always be this way. I absolutely don't deserve him. He disagrees and says it's the other way around but I know for a fact that after some of the shit I've done, he's too too TOO good for me and that I'll deserve the suffering of him leaving me should it ever occur. But I don't think it will. So... moving on... In other news, life has sorta kept on moving. I'm still working at QC - things are pretty good over there. I'm still not in school - yes, totally my fault and I accept the blame. I'm more afraid of it changing everything honestly. And going for what I want to go for seems almost impossible. I know, I shouldn't be thinking like that - practice what you preach and all. But it's hard to face that, you know? I was just looking into the subject actually, but I can't make myself be interested without admitting that I don't want to go. *sigh* Complicated mess. Things with friends are ever changing yet still the same. Still bff with Gigi, my beloved Twineh. No longer speaking to Jorel - the thought of him makes my blood boil with anger. But I've come to the conclusion that we'll talk eventually at some point or another. It's pretty much inevitable unfortunately. Um. No longer speaking to Rhiannon - though that was all her choice and to be honest, I don't even know what I did. It sucks but I've long since gotten over it because it won't matter in the long run. *thinks* Well, there's always people I go up and down with though I'm not sure if it's worth mentioning. Just the normal nonsense of life. Is it possible to be happy in life? Just totally satisfied with how things work for you? I think so. I feel it most every day. Even when I complain, when there's drama - it's still not so bad. Because it could be so much worse. I think back to high school and regret A LOT. I should have done this instead of that, I should have never gone near this, etc. Most of the time, I cringe on my memories. But it wasn't all bad and I know that. And I'm grateful for it. Funny, for something that no one is gonna read, I've written a lot. Ciao! Love and breadsticks everyone! <3 | 
